December 2010
sometimes.
and i dont know why
i feel stuck and useless and unloved and worthless and disgusting.
i miss people i hate and i hate people that i know becuase sometimes their not like the people that were once in my life. then i feel guilty and wrong and feel worse.
yay for sometimes.
You're beautiful <3 (: x
Your’re so sweet! :)
Thank you so much ^-^ you are stunning your self
November 2010
i want.
to call into one of those radio stations and ask them to give my parents an amazing christmas. Just them. My dad just lost his job before christmas, yet again. And my parents are always yelling and hating eachother becuase they feel guilty for not being able to get us the things they want to. Theyve been together sense they were 15. Not by choice. But I know they cant live without eachother, i just want them to have ahappy christmas for once.
But id feel to guilty for all the people that have dieing children..or a disease..or somthing like that and i took something they could have had. =(
That awkward moment when you're talking and you realize no one cares about what you're saying.
happens alot .-.
Thank you for following. What is something that you wouldn't give up for the world?
the love of my life<3 how bout yourself?
Things that hurt:
- Being unsure of how someone feels about you.
- Feeling like they are mad at you.
- Being misunderstood by people you care about.
- Being judged by people you care about.
- Feeling like you lost something that was never yours.
- Feeling like you’re doing too much.
- Thinking you aren’t doing enough.
- Not knowing if you should say something.
- Worried about what they’ll think if you do say it.
- Feeling like you care more than they do.
I Hate
When i watch somthing, or read somthing really sad, that my thoughts spin back to you and i wonder about if that happend to us. And i cry even more.
